Farewell, Newsviners. I don't want to get too maudlin about this, but it's time for Partisan Hack to die.
No, I am not about to go out to look for the razor blades. It's just that I think that it's time for my Partisan Hack persona to move on to a better life.
Like many Americans I think that I am a product of a 60s/70s youth who became traumatized by first the Kennedy execution, then the Nixon White House, the Reagan Revolution, the the attempted coup d'etat of Clinton, Bush v. Gore and then the Bush years. The Bush years were the hardest, in some ways, because I lost my friends and colleagues at the World Trade Center on 9/11 and then saw the other city that I love, New Orleans, where much of my family is buried, dragged through the shameful Bush efforts to destroy its essence. Politics started getting way too personal for my tastes.
Partisan Hack had to work out a lot of issues at times, but at the end of the day he found his voice as a relentless defender of the basic values of the Democratic party (I can hear the clicking of keys from the usual suspects already all too eager to take on that statement. Oh well, their choice.). With the Sarah Palin nomination it became all to clear to me that the Republicans will nominate endless combinations of Reagan and Bush in slightly different packages - the homespun/grandfatherly appeal, the defiance of reality, whatever the combination - forever. They will never end. But their victories will end, eventually. Perhaps even this year.
I see lots of good people on Newsvine now who are capable of fighting the fight against the Nixonland machine. I am not worried from that standpoint at all. What I had to ask myself at this point, though, is, what am I afraid of that I had to use Partisan Hack as an alias? I was afraid of reprisals, of course. It's a dangerous world out there. And frankly there are a lot of kooky people out there. I discovered this once when a person who was behind one of the major far-right PR blog machines turned out to be a former colleague. That was too close for comfort, to be sure.
But beyond those kinds of things, I had to ask myself, what am I doing? Am I that afraid of life that I have to fight people as an avatar? Well, frankly, yes, I think that I was afraid. I think that being myself is one of the hardest things for myself or many other people to do. I get afraid of being hurt too much. Partisan Hack was a way for me to fight back fearlessly. But, in truth, I am far less afraid of the things that I used to be afraid of. And I can see that the loss of my friends on 9/11, dealing with the ruins of lower Manhattan, the smell of burning flesh in the air, the endless photos of the places that I loved so much in New Orleans - all of these needed a defender to help me work through the grief and the pain of those moments over time. Gustav has come and gone. There are no more false government reports that will be filed on 9/11. They will go on. I will go on. Life will go on.
And I think that I do need to get on with my real life.
For those who I have insulted, I am sorry, Partisan Hack was trying to be as gentle as possible, but sometimes I forget to hate the sin and to love the sinner. For those whom I have supported, you're the best, your courage is great and don't give up. You serve a purpose. There is evil in the world, and we need to speak the truth with love. Sometimes love means speaking truths that people don't want to hear. You're good at it. Keep doing it.
To those of you from the loyal opposition who are real people, thank you for bearing with my unbearable partisanship. I will always be a believer in the ideals of a unified nation - and a world at peace - dedicated to freedom, justice for all and opportunity for everyone on a level and fairly governed playing field. I will never repent from those ideals.
To those of you who are from the loyal opposition who are PR hacks: FYI, I did this all for love of country. What's your excuse? Shame on you for pretending to be real Americans. If you have a story to tell that's worth believing, then have real Americans tell it for themselves.
And to the people of Newsvine, thanks. I know how hard it is for any publication to do a great job at social media. This experiment in citizen journalism is not perfect, but I salute you for trying to make it grow in positive directions. I still see Newsvine as a paradigm for many great ways to publish. Perhaps I'll try my own hand at something like Newsvine someday.
Anyway, if you want to take over any of Partisan Hack's groups, do let me know via email, otherwise I will be going dialtone on this account.
May the Lord bless you all and keep you all. We are all sinners awaiting his grace. Be well.